keeping up pretences is just too hard on some days than other... today was one such day... the whole idea of what i'm up to seems mind-numbingly stupid... i hate the whole idea of studying, reading, learning... i turn around all the books in my room(a lot more than a mentally healthy person ought to have) so that i cannot see their titles... and thus i pretend to ignore them... when the newspaper thumps outside on the porch, i read only the comic-strip and don't even attempt the sudoku or the crossword... the opinion page is left unopened...
i treat myself to a heavy dose of more numbness by sitting through most of Channel V's Dare to Date... i get my glimpse of hell...
my job applications are not getting anywhere close to where they ought to be... and the idea of my not being able to snag the same thing i had two years ago when i was incredibly much less wiser is incomprehensible... recession, people slowly explain to me...
so, i run... to bangalore... to J's house... she's got laryngitis... so instead of talking, we have to chat online... i mean, if i were making it up, i couldn't have come up with a more Murphier person!
Friday, January 8, 2010
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I say this not from the top of my hat, but if companies are not taking you, of all people, in, then there must be something very wrong with it!
ReplyDeleteUnfortunately, as bad as it sounds, and as much as you would've heard it from everyone else, "hang on" is probably the only way i can phrase my mind about your predicament! :|